I have CP – Cerebral Palsy. It can affect people different ways, but mine is involuntary muscle control on my left side. I was born with CP. Back then, they didn’t have a diagnosis–they told mom and my dad to lock me up in a mental institution.
Now we’re so far advanced, and we get so many services. I’m speaking out about my story that happened to me for two years…
I was abused. I wasn’t being taken care of properly. I was starved and malnourished to the point where you could see my collar bone. The police were called out several times. I could not report when I was getting abused because I felt I would be killed. At that time I was solo (without an SLS agency), and my abusers were brainwashing me.
I was abused on a daily basis: my clothes weren’t changed and I wasn’t eating. Thanks to Kavita and Antoinette (Antoinette is my landlord who is awesome) who kept calling the police out to do welfare checks. I was so out of my mind, I was so malnourished – every time they would ask me a question, I wouldn’t say anything because my abusers (I want my story to say who they are) – Liz, Alex, and Mike–were in it for the money. They knew I was in my room. If I cried, they would put the TV up loud so they wouldn’t hear me.
Eight years, a lot has changed since 2009 when I came to Compass. I still am speaking out for other people. Now I go out more and everything changed positively. Now I go outside and take walks and visit more people. I enjoy just being me. It’s nice to be able to go in my own fridge and grab a soda. I am happier than I have ever been and I am able to smile. I am not as afraid anymore.
I have a lot to be proud of now that I am me, and I am able to speak out about myself. I’m proud to say that I have my good days and my bad days. Being abused for two years, I went through a lot of pain asking, “Why me?” But it isn’t, “Why me” now. I am a hero, I am a superstar.
I don’t want to consider myself as a hero. To survive what I survived through, I’m not just a hero – I’m a survivor. I have the stability now where I can ask for support. I became a survivor because I had the support and I spoke out. I guess I understand why because I’ve been through a lot. Everyone has seen me grow since I’ve been with COMPASS.